somsoc

I think we need to talk.

I've thought much during our cold war, and listed lots of questions to be clarified before we can actually get back together.
Although I narrowed them down to only one question at last, and believed that it's the only thing that matters, your answer is still unsettling to me.

We are no longer what we were ten years ago.
Do we really see each other like we did when we first met, or do we just move on, no matter what the other has become?

I just got the feeling that you're becoming more and more impatient and irritable when I'm around.
Obviously the reason why we got into last fight is never demolished.
It's easy to pretend everything is OK as usual, but it's also easy to ignite the confrontation and go back to where we suffered.

I really don't know what to do.
I know I'll never be good enough to patronize or to be patronized.
But none of that matters if you see what you desire in me.
The question is, do you really? Or do you just think or pretend that you do?

What I'm trying to ask is, are we on the right track?
'Cause I really want this to go somewhere.
Only that I'm no longer sure we're planning for the same destination with the same goal we share.
Nor am I confident that I'm still as important and necessary to you as we began the trip.

Frankly it scares the crap out of me to be alone in unfamiliar places.
No one comes a long way abroad just to have a fight or to be abandoned.
However when it happens, it happens.
Maybe that's the actual reason I kept being so reluctant.